Have you ever been encounter confusion about identifying who you are, why are you exist, who will you be in the future, and what kind of memory that will be remembered when you died? If you had the same thing like that, congratulation !! you are wise in interpreting your life.
Me, I was a stubborn girl with so many ambitions in life. I just want to achieve it, that was only that. Without having clear and purposeful objective. Because achievements were the best way to prove the quality of me, even I had no idea why I should care of others meanwhile people outside there only could judge me. But then, the time showed me that my way of thinking was actually killing me harshly. It made me forget how to enjoy and happy for my short life.
I admitted that I was that bad , really bad. I started to think harder and let my self pass this stage . But that was OK, because I got my turning point. Yes, God let me to failed first, then I found my self in this confusion until God took a part again in showing the better version of me after I tried to forget the old me and looked for things that made people happy sincerely. I started to be open, listened, and observed things surround me. Until finally I found that the answer of that confusion is “ sharing “.
Sharing is the best therapy for any illness, problem and pressure . You can only feel it when you do it sincerely. Wait a moment, the story had not finish yet. On April 2015, God showed me the sources of happiness, the pool of sincerity, and the place to share with. I humbly let you know,it is Gerakan Mari Berbagi. A social movement which is really holding tightly in four values, there are living beyond your self, sharing in diversity, volunteerism and start from your self. I understand one thing beside sharing in that movement, which is I have to spread this value for many more people outside there. I really want to told them that sharing is the answer for their anxiety, fear, dread and hesitancy. God give you a gift through sharing. You are not king or queen, you have no ascribe values. So that your value need to be achieved.
The feeling when you finally find the answer of your confusion after quite long time and effort is actually worth it. That was my version, you will have your own. You deserved to be useful for others because God created you to be the bridge of his gift for his creators, as well as others, become the bridge of God’s gift to you. So please do not break the bridge.
Wine Anita Tesa
Participant of GMB Homestay Program 2016